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Isaiah 40:31 (ESV): "but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."
Most of my life, if the time where I am not fully engaged in something, I worry. It is not a function of my lack of faith, but rather a function of my TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury).
I don't mean the "I am a little worried about this," kind of worry, but more like the "I am going to be killed," type of worry. It is with me every moment of every day, except ... when I am waiting on the lord.
Before I explain what I mean by that, I want to explain what I would have believed before I established a personal relationship with Jesus. Have you ever heard, "An idle mind is the devils workshop?" That is kinda what I thought. If I kept busy, doing anything, like having an active mind and body, rather than doing nothing, then I would not be tempted to do something stupid or sinful, like worrying. You know, the popular self improvement university thing, "Do Something," with the ultimate understanding that it was I who was making in happen. So, basically, I would have believed that I was the master of my feelings, and I could make it all better by just doing something. Anything really. Just get the mass moving.
So, when I re-read this psalm, the "wait on the Lord," part must be more than just doing something. At first, I thought that waiting meant being "He says, “Be still, and know that I am God" of Psalm 46:10. You know, just sit down and wait, and let the Lord do it all.
But that did not help. I could not sit still and wait, because of the TBI. Sleep, yes, but wait? So I continued to read the word, and check my life. What I discovered was that the ONLY time I was not worried was when I was working within my Gift, walking with the Spirit, so to speak. For me, it is teaching. When I am teaching Karate or Sunday School, I am at peace. When I am not, my TBI tries to take over my life. I have come to understand that with worries I can learn to wait for resolution, if I remain within the Spirit, doing what I was made to do.
So, I encourage you to find your gift. Pray about it, examine your life, ask others. You will discover that there are things you can do that others either can not, or do poorly. Read the bible and discover what gifts there are, and then start doing the one(s) that will make itself obvious to you. The Spiritual Gifts are there for you to wait upon the Lord, and if you want to soar like on eagle's wings, you are going to have to use your gifts.
I don't mean the "I am a little worried about this," kind of worry, but more like the "I am going to be killed," type of worry. It is with me every moment of every day, except ... when I am waiting on the lord.
Before I explain what I mean by that, I want to explain what I would have believed before I established a personal relationship with Jesus. Have you ever heard, "An idle mind is the devils workshop?" That is kinda what I thought. If I kept busy, doing anything, like having an active mind and body, rather than doing nothing, then I would not be tempted to do something stupid or sinful, like worrying. You know, the popular self improvement university thing, "Do Something," with the ultimate understanding that it was I who was making in happen. So, basically, I would have believed that I was the master of my feelings, and I could make it all better by just doing something. Anything really. Just get the mass moving.
So, when I re-read this psalm, the "wait on the Lord," part must be more than just doing something. At first, I thought that waiting meant being "He says, “Be still, and know that I am God" of Psalm 46:10. You know, just sit down and wait, and let the Lord do it all.
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But that did not help. I could not sit still and wait, because of the TBI. Sleep, yes, but wait? So I continued to read the word, and check my life. What I discovered was that the ONLY time I was not worried was when I was working within my Gift, walking with the Spirit, so to speak. For me, it is teaching. When I am teaching Karate or Sunday School, I am at peace. When I am not, my TBI tries to take over my life. I have come to understand that with worries I can learn to wait for resolution, if I remain within the Spirit, doing what I was made to do.
So, I encourage you to find your gift. Pray about it, examine your life, ask others. You will discover that there are things you can do that others either can not, or do poorly. Read the bible and discover what gifts there are, and then start doing the one(s) that will make itself obvious to you. The Spiritual Gifts are there for you to wait upon the Lord, and if you want to soar like on eagle's wings, you are going to have to use your gifts.
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